Quarantine Day 8: CanNOT LIVE Angry! So what Else??

During my COVID work in NJ I was personally questioned and attacked (via Fb) regarding COVID information I posted. By people who questioned the validity of any of it. And the “horrid ways we are violating people’s rights”. Questioned me. As if I wasn’t actually there. Sweating my ass off 50 hrs/wk in COVID ICU.

Initially I tried to take the high road. Consider it all ignorance and help educate. And address where the fears started. You know. That Life Coach thing 😇

Ummm. That does NOT work with someone completely caught up in fear and lies!!! After a few days of exhaustive effort, the seething anger crept in. Right alongside the sadness for persistent stupidity.

You’ve seen it. You’ve probably gotten very frustrated with the tangled assumptions. Impossible to UNWIND 🥵

Exhausting! And just trying to be a good citizen is a Bad thing? (Screams with utter frustration)

Now that I’ve had a few days to unwind my own frustration and anger, I’m looking at where my buttons got pushed.

Because my buttons and choices are THE only thing I can rewire. I know. Cliche. Right? But seriously. It’s still True. Even this year. Especially THIS year. Especially with the constant LABELING of Others. Sheeples. Racists. Karens. Democrats. Republicans.

I can choose to reciprocate these personal attacks by spewing more LABELS and assumptions? (Again screams with frustration.) CHOOSING to live all up in the ANGRY hurricane . . . adding more power to the viscous destruction??

I DO NOT WANT to Live in anyone else’s storm!!!!!

So my focus these last few days of the Moon cycle (New Moon 7/20) I’m choosing to do ceremony. Asking. Praying. For clarity about ME. What beliefs do I need to let go of? What do I need to look at deeper? What am I afraid of? Who am I in this crazy 2020 explosion??

What is MY Focus??

My Mission??

My Responsibility??

And how the F*#k can I play and laugh in the middle of it all?? Because I obviously really like to play with the unique, ironic and crazy cool delights all around me 🤓🌈😎💕

Anyone interested in joining me on this Ironic search for Sanity?